As I sit here at a Huck's gas station in Madisonville (only place I could find public wifi), I'm asking myself, "What are you doing here?"
The only reason I'm sitting here is because I'm working on finding out the latest details on the UK coaching situation. But why?
Sure, I spent the first 27 years of my life in the Bluegrass State. I am a UK graduate, and I covered the team professionally for almost a decade. But not anymore.
I have really enjoyed being just a fan the last several years--something I was not able to be when I worked at WKYT. I actually went to a game last season and CHEERED! I hadn't done that since college.
I was around the program in one of its all-time greatest decades: the 90's. 4 Final Fours. 3 NCAA Championship games. 2 National Titles.
Those were some of the best years of my life. I often miss those days.
But I must admit that there is one aspect of covering UK Basketball I absolutely do not miss: the insanity of it all.
I love the passion UK fans display for the program, but despise the amount of interest they pay to it.
Just as greed leads to corruption when it comes to money, the overzealousness towards UK Basketball leads to deceitful conjecture. In other words, you get too many people saying shit and not knowing what they are talking about. Granted, that's how most message boards thrive, but that's not what I am about.
I don't care that much about knowing it first. I just want to know what's right. The truth is way more important than timing.
What often happens in situations such as these, is that people tend to either stretch the truth or completely make things up in an attempt to make themselves seem more important. There is a certain level of respect, or maybe even celebrity, in being "in-the-know."
I had somewhat forgotten about that dynamic, but now I find myself getting sucked back into it--UK style.
Over the last several days, I have been getting bombarded by people offering up "inside information" about the UK coaching situation. Some of them have been complete strangers, while others are those I would normally trust otherwise. But right now, I'm leery of everybody, even my most trusted sources.
Why is this person telling me this? What is their motive? Do they really know or are they just trying to get me to put some false information out there?
Those questions make up my current internal struggle.
So instead of giving myself a headache, I am going to leave it all alone for a while. Instead of trying to find out what's going to happen before it does, I am going to just wait and see like everyone else.
Plus, I have much more important things to worry about right now, like trimming my mom's hedges at her new house here in Madisonville.